Am i horrible girl friend?

okay. so i know my boyfriend is going to propose to me soon, and im the kind of person who loves surprieses, but hates the anticipation for them. he forgot to log out from his e mail and when i went to check mine, i noticed an e mail from a friend of his who he had lunch with a few weeks ago and in the e mail his friend said " so how did your lady like her new years "gift" " does that mean that he was going to propose on new years? because he didnt? im trying to play detective here even though i know i shouldnt, but the suspence is just killing me